Why do I love you?

The way you smile
The way you care
The way I am when, you’re there.

The way you’re mine
And I am yours
The way you found the key to my doors.

The way you love me
And change my world
The way you leave my heart swirled.

For this and more I love you honey
Thank you for always making my life sunny.

Where are you?
Can’t you hear my cry?!
Where are you?
There is nothing but night.

Why did you leave?
Wasn’t I enough?!?
Why did you leave?
Life is so tough…

Why couldn’t you just stay?
Why did you disappear?
When all I wanted was a dad
That could stay with me forever here….

Nie wiem co mam robic, przyjaciel mojego bylego sie zapytal czy nie moglibysmy razem sprobowac.... nie wiem co mam mu powiedziec bo ja sie boje.

Afraid to love
I'm hiding myself
Afraid to live
I hide my pain

Tears in my heart
Tears in my soul
Numb eyes
so alone

Searching for someone
who is not even there
I'm slowly dying
and no one cares...

I am not stucked anymore

I have realised just now that this whole thing between me and my ex boyfriend is really an end and that probably we will never be friends again. I have decided to stop dwelling on it as its just hurting me and I will not allow him to have such a power over me. And I have also realised that I do need a boyfriend because this is the way I am and I always need someone to be there in my life. So I have made up my mind... I am gona get myself a boyfriend :D (easy thing to do for me...)

Today I decided to write the post in polish

Mialam sen ostatnio ze on mnie zablokowal na msn, jego kolega mi mowil we snie "Tak Angelika on ma Ciebie dosc i Cie zablokowal na msn". Wiec dzisiaj postanowilam to sprawdzic i co sie okazalo? Tak zablokowal mnie, zabolalo bardzo i malo co sie nie roplakalam ale powiedzialm sobie juz dawno ze nie bede plakac przez niego i udalo mi sie powstrzymac lzy... po raz kolejny...
Wogole miewam dziwne sny i koszmary, ostatnio jak bylam w samochodzie z Natalia i Mackiem to mialam przeczucie ze cos zlego sie stanie i co, moja mama miala wypadek ale na szczescie nic jej ani Marlenie sie nie stalo... Zdalam sobie sprawe ze ja caly czas walcze z moimi myslami o nim i to mnie wykancza. Chyba sie poddam i tak nie mam nic do stracenia bo naprawde nic nie mam...Mala we mnie dziewczynka wola o pomoc...

"Tears we bleed.

Eye for an eye

I got blood drops coming from my eyes.

Cant you see the pain in my eyes

I got blood drops coming from my eyes.

Ashes to ashesdust to dust.

Still the pain pours from my eyes.

Like a touch of poisonmy words can be potent.

So don't let me spit my venomor you might get hurt.

Back me in a corner

hear me grrrrowl.

Scratch me an il bite.

Its just the beast in me.

Angels gave me life

but demons have my soul.

So now my days are cold

and nights are dark.

Dark thoughts of whips

and chains keep my soul caged.

So now i gotta bleed it out.

Put my pen to paperan

let my heart pour it out.

Close my eyes

take a deep breath

and let the blood drops drip.

I got blood drops

coming from my eyes.

Cant you see

the pain in my eyes

I got blood drops

coming from my eyes.

Ashes to ashes

dust to dust.

Still the pain pours from my eyes"

Sometimes it hard not to cry but I promised myself: not another tear will fall from my eyes